Scanner Daybook

While in a meeting with my team, I confessed that I can't make up my mind where do I want to spend my next 10.000 years of my life. PM? Developer?Coach?Communications? People skills? Until now I have been like a student, learning a lot, never caring about certifications and moving from one career to the other, worried that I do not have a strong future ahead. One of the Senior guys in my team started smiling and said; You are a Scanner! He brought me this book, "Refuse to Choose" by Barbara Sher. I started reading the cover and the Prologue, and I started crying! It was me all over. I have been misunderstood and misdiagnosed until now. I have been beating up myself until now when thinking that I am not good at something, I am all over the place and I am scared about my career. Well, apparently this is something that a lot of people have. Before 50s, people like me were appreciated. But then there was the need for professionals and very focused careers. People like me were seen as unable to commit, unable to focus, not trusted. We were offered methods to find what we should choose and keep being focused at. But how can a Scanner do that? I have always found myself interested in a lot of things, and I can't say which one the most. Because, typical for Scanners, at some point the interest is lost and we move on to something else that is interesting. People like Da Vinci, Aristotle, Ben Franklin have been like this. They were amateurs (meaning lovers of something) but never specialist to it. The things is that, we do not want to finish everything we start. As soon as we become knowledgeable on a field, we loose interest and want to move on to something else. This explains how I feel happy when I start a new job but then I am bored of it and want to change it. One of the exercises to do is to create a Daybook, where every time I have ideas on what to do, I would sit down and write them. When I stop writing, I should put down the reason for stopping. This for 2 weeks. Then I should do a list of things I want to do that are small enough to be done in a period of 6 years. I can write down here the list of things I want to do, and I will write Daybook ideas on other posts. As an extrovert, I need external input to feel motivated :) Here a list of things I would like to do in 6 years: - Learn to play guitar - Visit at least 3 of these countries: England, Spain, China, Japan, Vancouver, Israel(Jerusalem), Sweden, Australia, South Africa - Go through some really good sessions with a psychiatrist (alone or with my husband for couple sessions) - Go through some good sessions with a fortune teller - Sing a song and recorded - Make another dress for myself that I can wear - I would know more about Mars atmosphere - Go to some classes about Quantum mechanics at any University - Throw a Christmas party with a lot of special food I have cooked. - Been to a Lang-Lang concert - Write 2 more short stories - Have the stories that I have written put together on a book - Go on stage on an improvised show - Improve my French - Learn more German - Get back to exercising 3 times a week (karate/swimming/core/yoga) I know, it's all over the place! But I like them all.. and maybe some more that I can't think of right now. I am just glad that at least there is a name for people like me, and I have more to read on what to do about who I am

Update: Jobs I found interesting for me: - Coach. I can talk with different people, teach them something, learn something from them - Speaker at Discovery channel. While I do my job and I read a script, I learn a lot about cool stuff they show on that channel