Woman and Power

Last night, the female ex-prime minister of Pakistani and leader of opposition, Bhutto, was killed. The first to be blamed are the ones in power and the extremist Islamics. The killer, did blow up himself right after. Just like in the September 11 attack, kill and then suicide, scared to face the actions and take responsibility. What kind of rats do that?
What do we have to do to open the eyes of people so they can see what is good and bad, right and wrong, forward and backward? Is it because she was a woman or because she was modern on her opinions and the way she looked at the future? Maybe the combination, I think!
I am afraid of where the World is going. Extremists are becoming normal, acceptable and present. Islamic extremists, pro Bush extremists, anti-women extremists....I don't know anymore! I just don't like extremists of any kind. Why do we have to KILL to promote our ideas? Where are the wise men and women that with words can cool down World Wars, that are not hungry for money and power but actually think about World Peace? Why do they have to hide, be especially protected, be told to shut up and then gunned down? There are so many idiots out there that talk, scream, push and get rich and nobody kills them for wasting natural resources?
In the same time, America has to vote and choose between a woman and a black man for future president. What's going to be? If the woman will be elected, will Islamics kill her as well? If the black man is elected, will white men and women kill him? And the one that would have made so many people happy if he was killed, in my opinion, is only the existing Mr. President!

..................
Sleep in heavenly Peace
Sleep in heavenly Peace

Boxing day

I know it means to go on stores and shop like mad but I actually put myself in front of another box (TV) and watched again, for another couple of times, my favorite Christmas movie, "Love Actually" and then "Before Sunset", very cute. Recommended for everyone!

Garden State

I left Toronto on Friday to go and visit my cousin that lives in New Jersey. The airplane that was supposed to come and pick us up, for some un-explained reasons turned back on half way so they send another plane for all the people that were left here. It took 3 and half hours to finally get on the plain and fly for 1 hour. Such a short trip that there was not enough time to finish the small peanut pack they give you along with a juice. Arrived there and got a cab, the driver had no idea where was the place I was going. Luckily, I had checked the map on Googles one night before and I was able to direct him right at the door step. At the end he turned and asked me, Have you been here before?, and said No, I just looked at the map last night. With his very strong african accent, he turned and said to me , You are a smart woman, believe me! Yes I am, I told him and smiled. Believe it or not, that was the best moment of the day. Got in my cousins apartment and find out that she had moved to Code Red-Emergency Level One. The only place she hadn't called yet was Police. Told her that airplane was late but she was worried that a taxi driver might have kidnaped me on the way to her. She also forced me to call my husband right away and then, she came and gave me a hug and said "Welcome"! My daughter was a surprise to her, she never thought my girl would be so pretty! (I kind of took that as a personal offense but it's not worth it to think such a things if you know my cus') After a lot of laud talking and laughing and big-bear hugs, my daughter got so sick that she started vomiting and it didn't end till 2 o'clock in the morning. Changed her 4 times from head to toe, bathed her 2 times, run to the bathroom 6 times and spend a lot of time cleaning one of the couches. When finally we decided to sleep, heard a big "BANG" at the front door of the building (she is the superintendent of the building and lives at the first floor, very close by the door). The police showed up before I said "What the f*** was that" and they asked if everything is fine. The front of the building was covered by police man searching with torches for something, there was a Rescue Unit and the street was blocked for 2 blocks so no one could driver there, just walk. By 3 in the morning, her husband came home as well (he works in evening hours) and we had had time to talk, guess about what could have happened, rumor all other cousins and said more than 20 times, Let's go sleep now!

My daughter was much better next day and that made everything easy. We didn't go a lot around but made it to get to a mall with some indoor playground where my girl had fun for a while. At the end we stopped to this small place where there were a lot of toys around and children could play for free. Now, I should have known better to trust a place that offers something for free in America. The kids that were playing there, were WILD and VIOLENT. After the first 5 minutes, my daughter came and told me "Mom, these are bad people here!" Had to move and save my girl from becoming hispanic or some sort of african-american, actually mostly american, as I have a great respect for africans from Africa! Had to do the mandatory stop at a Victoria Secret's shop (hasn't arrived in Canada yet)but nothing more than that.

At my cousin's house, I said "I'm sorry" to my husband from deep inside my soul. See, my husband, always tells me that I have an aggressive way of approaching things sometimes, but I do not agree with him. But there, I finally understood that there must be a family problem here. I looked at how my cousin talked to her husband and how he talked back to her and I felt that I must be like that sometimes as well, much moderated but my husband is not like her husband either so, I can understand where he gets the "aggressive" from. And, good girl as I am, I did tell my husband sorry when I came back home, putting him in a status of shock for a good 30 seconds!

After spending 3 days in Jersey I know:

-1- Jersey is black, hispanic and white, in this order.

-2- People in Jersey are very angry and it is not recommended to talk or have a conversation with them. Keep it short!

-3- There is probably a family problem that I have to work on and find a better-softer-smoother way to approach to my husband and maybe even others that don't tell me.

-4- Kids learn fast. My cousin and her husband tried to teach my daughter some of our language, but always in the funny-bad-not_appropriate_way. She did learn all that fast and when she used all those words we would all laugh and she arrived in the conclusion "Mom, I'm funny"

-5- There is so many bad habits and things that we should introduce to our kids in the same way we introduce all the good ones. At that mall, when she came and told me "These are bad people", I felt that she was not ready to face the World like the other kids were, and that made ME feel not good. I want my girl to be the best on any situation and if the situation is to face bad people, she should be strong enough to do so.... not to be like them but not to let them bully her either... altho' as a friend of mine told me just last week "After a lot of training in the army, they were told that the best move to do when faced by danger, was to RUN"

-6- When traveling with a child, do not take anything to read with you as you won't have the smallest chance to do so. You can very well replace the reading material with a pack of Crayons.

And since tonight is Christmas Eve, let's all wear red underwear and pretend we have been nice last year so Santa will bring us what we were looking for. HO-HO-HO

I'ts De-cember

So another year just about to leave and remind us that we are growing up... ok ok, getting older! It is impossible to not be aware of it. The Christmas trees are put up and decorated since September. Any store you step in, you hear Christmas songs and everything is decorated in the way to tell you "Hey, I'm a gift idea, buy me!".And if you do actually buy something, plan to get also a book with you as you will be on line to pay for it for long-loooooong time . I get a full mail box with stickers and cards from organizations that need 25$ from me in order to continue to function and offer to everyone a safe Christmas. Everywhere in radio or tv, each channel has their own charity they want you to contribute to. The daycare where my daughter goes, finally announced the day of the Christmas concert that has been prepared for a month. I had to actually tailor a small skirt for my daughter this year as the uniform needed a black one and she didn't have one! Feel pretty proud about it as it came out nice and all her teachers are asking me to make skirts for them! Not going to do that ever, but still feels good :)
Another sign of Christmas is that you start getting mail from people that write to you only for Christmas, kind of "hey, we don't hang out together but I do think of you!!" You get invited to parties from people that you know very little and you start thinking, why did they invite me?
I have to do shopping, write cards, mail the packages and mail the cards. It's such a pain in the ass but if I don't do it, no one will!
Your friends start making their own web cards with their faces and with animations like elves or jingle bells and fill your e-mail box up to the point that you get e-mails from the IT department to remind you that your e-mail box is over the limit size!
They also send you gifts, where 60% is chocolate, 30% candles and 10% other.
All the shows on Tv go to repeats because the actors or presenters go on vacations.
But one thing that I like at the end of each year is the Victoria's Secret fashion show! Now, I like guys, there is no doubt about that, but those girls are steamy! I watched the show couple of night ago and was just grrrrreat!

So based on all of these, I have to admit that Christmas is the most depressing time of the year! I get sad and become picky on what I like to do. Mostly because I have about 2 weeks off from work and I don't get to go home to my parents. Also, just staying home, eat and watch tv or old movies doesn't work well for me. I probably have to start playing on-line games or just the XBox with my husband so we get closer with each-other :) I guess I need friends and family around to keep me busy so I don't have time to start thinking about my old friends and the time when I had things to do during holidays...haha....like one year, I just locked myself up in my room to finish this puzzle with 2000 pieces on January 1st. The idea was that I was pissed with my boyfriend and I didn't want to meet him. I knew he was outside waiting for me to get out and come and talk to me so I had to stay home. But at home my mom would become suspicious as why was I staying home (I never did!) so I started the puzzle and I said that I wanted to finish it. She knows I love puzzles so kind of left me alone. But I had some friends calling or coming to visit me at home so wasn't bad :)
Last year I volunteered to have Christmas party at my house and that kind of made me moving as I had to prepare for 30 guests. At the end I really had fun and loved it to have the house full with friends but this year I felt kind of lazy so I let another friend take over. It will be a house warming/ Christmas party as they just moved to another house. Also, a friend from States is coming for one week to visit people here and I am exited to meet him again. He promised he will find time to have a lunch with me someday during the week, just to catch up. I might drive to New Jersey to meet my cousin that haven't seen in a while. Like to drive there with my lovely Volvina, but everyone is telling me that I would be crazy to do that, so I will see about airplane.
I'm such a Grinch!

Peace after War

I was reading this story of how this American pilot that 62 years ago bombed a city in Japan, went back and met one of the survivors. Amazing to think that he landed in the city that he bombed and destroyed 62 years ago. But what is more amazing is the fact that he actually shook hand with one of the survivors, they sat down and talked about that day, viewed in different prospectives, one from the air and the other from the ground. The Japanese guy deserves all my respect for being so cool and not killing the American right there where a lot of people died because of him.
See, I am not that nice! I can get angry with people for much less, so for example, I got a letter at the door 2 days ago telling me that there was a package shipped for me and since they didn't found me home, they send this package to one of the mail centers. The problem is that they send it to this center that is about 30 minutes drive from where I live. So I call them and ask them to bring the package from the far away center to one that is very close to me. The girl typed a lot of stuff for about 10 minutes and at the end she gave me this confirmation number. And when I come home today, I find another letter at my door telling me that the package is still at the far away center waiting for me to pick up!!! I call and I was hoping it was a problem as it really should have been to the center close to me. Nope, not a mistake, the guy really didn't read at all all the notes the girl wrote for him but just kept the package back. Because it is Friday, the chance to have the packaged moved to the close center was Monday! Very angry I decide to drive to that place and just pick it up myself. Get there and the guy looks at the letter and tells me that it will be available at 7 pm ( was 6:30) off course I started telling him how incompetent his pairs are, idiots that don't know how to read and I was kind of glad there were some other people there to hear how much that postage service sucks! Waited there for 30 minutes, my daughter started crying and I didn't bother myself at all. At 7 pm the guy goes to the back office and I get in the front desk again and started ringing the bell they had there. The guy came back and asked for all the things he needed, asked me also to sign and passed the thing to sign to me like I was going to fetch it, very rude! Well, I did the same, sign it as bad as I could and just push it to him. I am so angry with these idiots that are not capable to read notes, have very little school, but work for some sort of Union, have a steady salary and just think they are someone!! I can't have the Japanese attitude and be cool, I am hot blood and I want to make sure that someone will pay off my anger! Is it bad? Maybe, but I am not the kind of person that gives you the other cheek if you slap me. Nope, I will very much want to brake your nose and hear you being hurt! Something is going on, even the palm reader (at the work's Halloween party) told me that I am a nice person but I will toughen up as I get older because I will realize that life is tough. Maybe I am getting older and tougher. It is in human nature to be angry and let it out. Look at this picture and tell me that we should not be angry! And by the way, is not my kid!

Some poetry I liked

So I found this website that has condensed versions of a lot of books. You can find it at http://www.rinkworks.com/bookaminute/ , it's funny. One of my favorites is Hitchhiker's Guide To the Galaxy by Douglas Adams.

But this one is just a poetry that I heard about and when I read it, I liked it.

Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920.

The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Feeling like an idiot

Somebody take the e-mail away from me!
I have been busy lately, at home and at work. Worked till late from home to finish some work that I am not able to finish at work because I can't concentrate there with all the interruption. That means that I have slept not as much as I would have liked to. At home, I am also working on setting this routine with my husband that he is that takes care of the kid in the morning and I'm the one that does it on the evening. So every morning has been a battle to leave home without doing anything else but get myself ready. My husband complains and creates reasons why should I be the one to take care of the child in the morning and I'm the one that closes the ears and leaves the house, so he is forced to leave bed and get the kid ready for daycare. Lat weekend I had over some visitors that are very nerve racking. She is such a bitch that is impossible to have her around for more than one hour and not do something to piss her off and turn on the bitchy side of her. On the other side, my family is asking me to go visit them for Xmass and I want to but it's expensive and cold to travel over the Ocean with a small child. Sometimes I think I should go by myself but I know that they are 60% interested to see the child and 30% for me and 10% for my husband.
So in short, not a good week, feeling tired and busy. When I am like this, the button that activates "I can take care of anything" mode is turned on inside my head and I can become a complete annoying-chatty-silly-idiot person. My husband would also say bitch-frigid as well.
And one of things I should keep away when I am like this is e-mail, the thing that makes me write things that can't be modified or erased or have a chance to re-interpret. And today I sent this e-mail to my whole team and of course the big boss included there. He sponsored to pay for our XMass lunch and I made this comment that it feels like a charity case!! How idiot am I?!!! Idiot to write this on an e-mail!!
This will make me shut-up for a while but the thing is that it is said and send and it shouldn't have to!I have to learn to prepare the e-mail, keep it minimized for 15 minutes and then re-think if should I send it or not!! That's it, but, how hard is it?! Oh man, I just feel like a moron!

3 is the new 2

Oh the pressure! All my friends are having their second kids and I'm behind!!! In the last month I have called 3 friends and they very happily have told me they are pregnant with the second child. My birthday just passed and everybody wished me another child. When i talk with the moms that have 2 small children, none of them is sane. One of them was complaining about some other moms she meets in a moms-get-together-thingy place, where a lot of mom in their 40-s, well set financially and professionally (that's why they have had the children so late!), tell her that she must have another child because "three is the new two"!
The only thing these moms are happy about, is the fact that they are on the way of having the children out of diapers. And I haven't started yet... so they put some more pressure on me about that.
The last one that told me was expecting a child, is this ex-student of mine, 8 years younger than me. He already has one child and now he said "I passed you :)", and all I could say was "I wasn't racing!!".
What is the problem with the world?! Why do you have to follow patterns or otherwise you will be reminded that you are behind with the plan?! These are the steps you have to follow in order to be not bothered
1- finish school, better a Master degree
2- get married in your 20-s
3- have one child and look happy
4- have the second child and keep looking happy
5- somewhere in between, make carrier
6- start pushing your children with bullet one and continue in order

I know I want another child just for the sake of the first one, but I will start on my own time. Why people want me to have another child but no one offers any help around. Why no one wishes me more help, more peace, more sanity and more time for ME!
No one asked me what did I do on my birthday... but here is what i did:
1- my daughter in the morning didn't sing happy birthday to me because there was no cake around
2- I took the day of from work so I could enjoy my birthday but my manager asked me to take it as a day of from my vacation
3- my husband expected me to keep the child at home since I didn't go to work. But I didn't, I sent her to daycare just like any other day. He made sure to bring it out of his chest as the next day when I was buckling her up in the car seat and the strap was not set properly, he said 'at least pretend that you care about your child'!
4-I spent some time taking care of myself, just like a woman should do often, you know, waxing, facial, shopping for nice clothes. And that was the best time of my day.
5-I felt guilty and I took my child early from daycare and with here I went to buy a cake for myself. We picked the cake she liked. Later that night, when there was a lit candle on the cake, she made sure she was the one to blow up the candle but finally she did sing happy birthday to mommy!

And now I have to have another child because "I'm late with the plan". I do not know about the other couples but I am not ready mentally to have another child. Work load does not help but I do not want to be left behind with my work and my finances. I wish I was doing better with my carrier and make steps but for now just working the load. I don't know how the other do it, seriously! What am I doing wrong or not doing at all that I am not like them? I am not stepping up with carrier ,I am not having the second child.. oh, and my weight is not going down after all the care that I try to take... I better make a good list of objectives for the next year as this one didn't bring more than failures until now.

Me, today

This is the e-mail I sent early this morning to my team:

Last night, on my way home, my car stalled on Gardener, just didn't want to go. I discovered that the variety of honks on the cars around me was very wide! Luckily, I was able to start the car, exit Gardener, park at the parking lot of an Anglican church (was empty and free to park :)), called road assistance and watched my car being towed away to my dealership from a red pickup truck! The driver of the cab I took to get home was 52, had 9 children with 4 different mommies and was expecting another one from his 6-th wife. I went home and had 2 Advils!
All this on the day of our 4-th wedding anniversary! I just feel like the main character on a British comedy!
This just hasn't been my week. Needles to say, I'm just staying home today.
Yeaaah, yeaah.. I hear you... "My beautiful new car" just let me down! All I can think is "Must be running Vista"! :)

Have a great Thanksgiving guys!

Making birthday cake

So my child turn 3 last week and I decided to be a good mom and make the birthday cake from scratch. Since there would be 2 parties, one at the daycare and one at a playground with close friends, I had to make 2 of them. In order to make a cake, I found this little book with ideas for kids birthday parties and I picked the one that looked more fun and easy, "The Mountain candy cake", which was a cake covered in gum balls, very colorful and fun! So I went to a specialty store and bought all the tools you need to decorate a cake, a big cake pan and lots of sugar, eggs, flour, butter sticks and lot and lots of icing!
So on her birthday I made the cake for the daycare. I made it with whole grain flour which was a big mistake as the cake didn't raise, was very heavy and was not white. I followed the recipe for the icing and didn't come out sticky at all so I couldn't do the decoration like the picture on the book. And then I came up with my version of the cake. My child wanted a Diego cake and not a candy mountain, so I made the Diego cake with some gum balls. Ta-taaa, here it is:



Kids at daycare called it "Diego party" instead of Birthday Party :) Not bad as a first cake! Now I had to make another cake for more people and some of them adults, so the quality had to be better. So my husband and I decided to make it with layer of chocolate and vanilla. He made the chocolate layer and I made the vanilla one. Then we made 2 big batches of icing to cover all these layers and then we had to make the decoration, of course with Diego again! After all this, I had the second cake made from scratch and look like this:



At the playground, there were a lot of other birthdays going on but they declared our cake "the hugest cake of the day"!
So, I did check one more thing off the list of the things to be a mom, - Able to make birthday cake from scratch!

Dating...How?When?Where???

So, I've been married for a while now and as you might guess, I'm not in touch with the "market" out there. But I have a friend that is not married and is looking to get into my side of fence. But how can you do that now days?

1- Quick Introduction
is the case when someone takes someone by hand and tells : Jenn this is Ben, Ben this is Jenn. Jenn has 1-2-3 good things and Ben has 1-2-3 good things. Ben and Jenn say :OH! Interesting! And then the person leaves and Ben and Jenn are supposed to work things out themselves
2- Long Introduction
is the case when someone tells to Jenn everything she wants to know about Ben plus some good feedback about the fact that Ben is one of the bachelors that all the girls are after. This person tells to Ben as well everything he wants to know about Jenn and also mentions the fact that there is another guy that is trying to get close to her. After this both Ben and Jenn want to meet and this person gives them the phone numbers and Ben calls first and so on...
3- Blind date
Someone tells to Ben that knows this girl called Jenn and thinks that it might work between them. Ben asks this person to check if Jenn wants to meet him. Jenn says: "Oh what the heck, ok!" and they go out for a coffee or a bier and goes from there.
4- Online dating
Where people can pretend they are someone else, chat, call and then meet.
5- Family findings
When someone related to you comes to you or your parents and says that has met this person that fulfills all the condition the family is looking for out of the future in laws and after some questions they decide if the girl and boy should meet, how and where and when.

Depending on your personality, number of limits and conditions you put, urgency and family pressure one of these works better than the other. So I made the mistake number 3 with my friend and got stuck into getting a "No" from her. So she actually didn't even want to go and meet the guy for a coffee while he was ok. I got so confused and shocked and a little angry with the fact that she actually wanted to know much more about the guy before she mets him and she wanted this info from me. So I was supposed to get all the answers from the guy, get to her and maybe she would accept to go and have a coffee with the guy and find out on her own most of those questions!! I thought this was just terrible! But another thing I learned is that my friend is geographically limited and the country from where the person is is very important to her. The number one on the list is the country where we are born. Guys from other countries were in the list only if she would fall in love with them by herself... right, I forgot one of the options:

6- Fall in love
is the case when two people fall in love without any external input

I can not believe that a single person would not want to go to meet someone that a friend is recommending. This because I know she is totally against on-line dating and the chance that she will fall in love is not high in my point of view. What makes me angry from all this is that at this point she does not evaluate my opinion, the fact that I think that guy might be right for her is not good enough. BUT, if she would like the guy and I would talk bad about him, pointing out his bad sides and I would say that "I don't think this would work!", she would totally listen to me and maybe give up to the guy!!!
So ....
WHEN
do we listen to other peoples opinions and when do we stop listening to them and stick to our own ?
HOW
are we suppose to meet new people if personality wise we are not very outgoing and the wall of conditions is thick?
WHERE
are we expecting the introductions to come from when friends and family are saturated in their connections?

I guess the first thing should be to have an open mind. I like to think that I have an open mind...maybe that is the one that married me when the pressure from family was at the peek ... not that this is the most important thing you will do on your life... ohhhhhh nooooooooo... but is one of them.

Rock on

Last night I was on my first live concert. And what a concert I picked: SCORPIONS in Toronto!!
Now I know that people 27 and younger have no idea probably who Scorpions are. You have to tell them about the song with the whistle (Wind of change) or Hurricane and maybe will ring a bell to them. But for me, they are one of the favorite bands that have contributed on my growth as a person. Can't say I know all of their songs. I am mostly into ballads and they do have some really nice ones.
So last night they sang some of their new songs and to tell the truth I did like "Humanity". Pretty impressive to like a song that you hear for the first time on a noisy live concert. I guess if I hear it from a studio recording I will like it a lot. And here and there they had some of their classic songs. There were people that didn't sit for a second (unfortunately the ones ahead of me so I had to stand up all the time as well) and they sang all the time because they knew every word of every song!!! Pretty amazing considering that they had the biker looking with a big bier belly!!
It was a lot of nostalgia in their old songs for me. I remember, during my first year of high school, there was this guy that finally took the courage to tell me he loved me (the first time someone told he loved me face to face) and because I was so naive and scared like a mouse I told him not to talk to me anymore. Like a gentleman, up to this day he hasn't spoken a word to me! But he was friend with my friends. I used to exchange a lot of books with my friends and one day I found at the end of one book two songs of Scorpions, written by hand, very nicely. Was "Holiday" and "Still loving you". None of my friends knew English that well or had any interest on writing the lyrics of these songs to my book, so I have a very good feeling was him! To be honest, he touched my heart in a secret place with that! My friends tell me that he has become kind of weird but in my books he is fine. If I have a chance to talk to him again, I would say "Sorry for any pain I have ever caused you! I didn't mean it, just was scared and didn't know better!"
Just in time for this exiting first concert, BlogSpot has introduced this new feature to add personal videos. I am adding this very bad quality of video I got from the concert with my cell phone (no cameras allowed). Those guys can still sing and rock the stage! The drummer was really awesome and he kept the show for about 10 minutes with some drum tricks! The only disappointment was that they didn't sing "Woman", maybe my personal favorite song. My ears still beep, I guess I have damaged them for good! My throat is itchy and my legs hurt... Oh well, was all worth it :)

300 and some

So I made it watch the movie "300".At the beginning I didn't want to as I was told there would be disturbing scenes with children being sacrificed and lots of people being killed. But then I took the courage and I watch it from beginning to end. And it is a disturbing movie, lots of killing, blood, angry men and some almost to very naked women. I was comparing it with "Passion of Christ" and I think this one brings the bar higher. There were a lot of discussions when that movie came out but nothing about this one. Is our sensitivity changed so much that we accept anything shown on TV, any shade of blood sprayed right on the camera, any head cut flying in the air and anything someone called director and photographer decide to put on our face?
What was wrong with the old war movies, where there was a lot more than just the killing in the 120 minutes of the picture? It used to be a lot more attention to the story and the message and some combat for action. Now the attention is to the combat and in between, while they eat an apple for snack, there are some words just to connect the battle that just finished with the next one.
Gerard Butler is a dreamy guy! I really liked him at "Dear Franky". He is hot here as well, also in a good physic (so were the other 299 guys behind him) but the old Greek hair style is just ridiculous on him. In this movie he shows it almost all, except his "package". I guess that is the thing that makes the girls watch this movie when dragged by thier men to the theater or rent it to Blockbuster.
In all I was not very impressed and I don't think I will watch it again, once is enough. Also, I think, for the next year pride parade, there will be a lot of guys dressed up like the big Persian guy that was under the impression he was God. He was a perfect Drag Queen.

Liveaboard

This marine flag means:

L - you should stop, I have something important to communicate

My manager of 1 year just quit yesterday for one of the best top 5 reasons to quit: He has decided to take a 2 year trip on Central America's waters on a boat with his wife!

P - the Blue Peter - all aboard, vessel is about to proceed sea. (At sea) your lights are out or burning badly

He has been a lot around, traveled in all the possible ways (airplane, car, bicycle, rock mounting, boat) and he is an inspiration for life enjoyment. He is the kind of guy that has done well on carrier, has a wife that loves him and he is in love with, has taken all the chances life has given to him, doesn't follow rules out of his own and he doesn't have children. For 2 years before becoming my boss, he has been representing the company in our office in India, managing a group of developers. Then that office closed and he came back to Toronto to spend one cold winter, just like before. That made him think that "It doesn't have to be like this!"

D - keep clear of me, I am manoevering with difficulty

He had a really hard time with the cold while all the time he was talking about the hot weather of India. And then in February he took a trip down on Mexico to visit some uncle of his wife that lived there and seems like that was the trip that changed his mind for good.

S - my engines are going full speed astern

He sold his house for more than he was expecting and instead of buying a new one, he will sell his old boat and buy a new one of those! His wife and him are planning to go to Florida, the best market for boats, and buy a boat there. Florida is the best market for boats because a lot of people start their trips up north and by the time they arrive to Florida, their wives have given them 2 options: "The boat or Me!", so they sell the boats.... or their wives, whichever makes a better deal.

X - stop carrying out your intentions and watch for my signals



I am really jealous! I am really jealous!

W - I require medical assistance

I really need to find the reason why I do not do things like that in my life?! I like adventures, I like traveling, I do not like Toronto's winter and I do like to learn Spanish in Cuba. So I do like to do all these things and I'm not. Trying to find whom to blame....

B - I am taking on or discharging explosives

The biggest adventure I have done in my life is to leave home and move to Toronto at 27. I loved it and I think I did a good thing to move here. But why did I get married here? I shouldn't have gotten married, I should have continued to follow adventures that my heart would have told me to. And not just that, but I married also someone that doesn't like adventures ... I mean the kind that I like because, believe you me, he does like some other kinds! And then there was the kid, don't get me wrong, I love my kid to death, but I think it is hard to take adventures of any kind with a kid that is still on diapers. So it seems like I have made all the possible choices to disable myself from taking adventures and live on the edge. I guess I am the one to blame.

I - I am altering my course to port


Well, I am sorry he is leaving as he was a good boss, a nice guy and things were going fine since he took this job. I wish him all the fun and hope he doesn't meet any pirates out there. As per us here, we will have to find a nice gift for him so he can remember us in the middle of the blue, and a new boss as good as him.

substitute 1;

Getting anal (ogy)

Have you heard the expression " Groceries shopping is the foreplay of the cooking". So someone asked me: What does that make the eating?

In my rhythm of life, I do groceries once a week but I cook every day. So this means that one foreplay can turn me on for all the week. Actually I do have some problems with that. In order to keep my cooking ON all the week, I do use other stuff as well, like research recipes on internet or read cooking books or watch Food TV. Plus, to cook I do not buy everything on one groceries trip. I do have already at home some of the ingredients and spices required from the recipe and I don't need to buy them EVERY time! All these things between the foreplay and the cooking, give texture, taste, color and smell to the last result of cooking.
On the other side, there are people that are called professional cooks and they have other people that do groceries for them and other people that eat what they cook. All they do is cooking without foreplay and they do not eat it.
If the analogy above is true, then people that foreplay must be good sales people and people that use the foreplay must be really good cooks!
So to go back to the question, what does this makes eating? To recap: we need foreplay=groceries, we use some "home" ingredients=spices, we have some recipes to follow=TV and DVDs, we cook=yeah! and then ....we eat it=?!
I guess in the example of the professionals, eating is "tell your buddies" about it , yeah! Make those money worth it so they can be jealous of you. But what do you call the people that read the menu of the restaurant from outside and then decide to get in or not although there was a professional that cooked? I guess they can be 1- priests or 2- been 20 years to prison and forgot how the food tastes or 3-they are working hard on becoming cooks on their own.
In the example of non professionals, eating should be 1-"Got to go" or 2- "I'm really thirsty" or 3- smoking or 4- go to sleep or.... YES! I think that's it:
If groceries shopping is the foreplay of cooking, eating is the foreplay of sleeping!

Talking to people

So, there is about a year that I meet this guy in meetings at work. I know he is German and he has a very German personality as well, which means, he takes things seriously, hard to make him laugh, when talks about work he puts too much heart into it. Anyway, today I found out he is from East Germany, or as he said with a smile, "I'm a communist". I had never meet a communist German before in my life!! I thought so, but looks like I knew one for a year! I mean, I have seen them on TV hitting down that big wall but never actually digested the thought that communists can be even German! Was funny as he mentioned that he did some kind of martial arts on his army training, reminding me that I did take some military training at school as well, just not martial arts, was more of target shooting with old guns. He thought I was Greek so I had to explain to him I am a communist as well, and maybe more than him. Not sure if he took that as a challenge as his smile somehow fainted and he became a thinker, don't know what he was thinking tho'. Yep, this is another thing hard to understand from a German!
And, since German touched my brain and since I like to pretend that I know a little German and since the best way for me to learn a language is from a song (sorry for all the chain created with "and" here), I decided to go and find the lyrics of the only German song I know and like, 99 Luftballons. Actually, I know also another song that Benny Hill sings "Ich habe ein schone rose..." but that doesn't count....and then there are a couple of songs from Falco like "Rock me Amadeus" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ya_k3j1kxXg or "Jeanny" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBW2ZO8Vrac, although, on a second thought, I think he is Austrian.
Here the lyrics of the song in German and English. Enjoy it!



99 Luftballons
NENA
Text: Carlo Karges
Musik: J. U. Fahrenkrog-Petersen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zN3itLN57R4

Hast du etwas Zeit für mich Dann singe ich ein Lied für dich Von 99 Luftballons Auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont Denkst du vielleicht g'rad an mich Dann singe ich ein Lied für dich Von 99 Luftballons Und dass so was von so was kommt 99 Luftballons Auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont Hielt man für Ufos aus dem All Darum schickte ein General 'ne Fliegerstaffel hinterher Alarm zu geben, wenn es so wär Dabei war'n da am Horizont Nur 99 Luftballons 99 Düsenjäger Jeder war ein großer Krieger Hielten sich für Captain Kirk Das gab ein großes Feuerwerk Die Nachbarn haben nichts gerafft Und fühlten sich gleich angemacht Dabei schoss man am Horizont Auf 99 Luftballons 99 Kriegsminister - Streichholz und Benzinkanister - Hielten sich für schlaue Leute Witterten schon fette Beute Riefen Krieg und wollten Macht Mann, wer hätte das gedacht Dass es einmal soweit kommt Wegen 99 Luftballons 99 Jahre Krieg Ließen keinen Platz für Sieger Kriegsminister gibt's nicht mehr Und auch keine Düsenflieger Heute zieh' ich meine Runden Seh' die Welt in Trümmern liegen Hab' 'nen Luftballon gefunden Denk' an dich und lass' ihn fliegen

Have you some time for me, then I'll sing a song for you about 99 balloons on their way to the horizon. If you're perhaps thinking about me right now then I'll sing a song for you about 99 balloons and that such a thing comes from such a thing. 99 balloons on their way to the horizon People think they're UFO's from space so a general sent up a fighter squadron after them Sound the alarm if it's so but there on the horizon were only 99 balloons. 99 fighter jets Each one's a great warrior Thought they were Captain Kirk then came a lot of fireworks the neighbors didn't understand anything and felt like they were being provoked so they shot at the horizon at 99 balloons. 99 war ministers matches and gasoline canisters They thought they were clever people already smelled a nice bounty Called for war and wanted power. Man, who would've thought that things would someday go so far because of 99 balloons. 99 years of war left no room for victors. There are no more war ministers nor any jet fighters. Today I'm making my rounds see the world lying in ruins. I found a balloon, think of you and let it fly (away).

You can knock me down with a feather

This is a nice, elegant, old British expression used when you want to express your immense surprise. I like it quite a bit!





In this case I am using it in the very most direct way an American would use it when in need to express immense lack of power and energy. Lately, I think my body is failing to work in a 24 hours cycle. I wake up around 8 as I can't push it any longer to be in bed. I wake up but I am very tired, sleepy and almost sleep walking. Leave house around 9 and by then I have done enough activity to justify when I say "I'm tired". I spent 40 minutes on a very busy highway. I know all the speed-pockets of that road by now and like a robot I know which lane I should move to in a specific part of the road. Get to the parking lot and speak some Italian with an African guy that takes care of the parking lot when it's full. He has been in Italy for 4 years. Since I do leave him my car key when the parking is full, he has noticed that I listen Italian songs when I drive and he thinks I'm Italian. One day I broke the news to him and told him I was not. I could have knocked him down with a feather! Anyway, now he finds interesting things about my country to talk every morning! I think we have a connection!
So I arrive at work at 10, right on time for most of the meetings my boss attends as well, so he doesn't know I JUST arrived! All the day I keep yawning, drink tea and sometimes Coke (who knows me knows that I can't drink coffee). It s just brutal to be all day like that! And then I come home, prepare supper, put the kid to bed, it's almost 9 pm. At this time, I am fully awake, I have energy.. I just wish is morning. The problem is that I am not able to sleep at that time so I can cover for that sleep I didn't get in the morning. I find interesting things to watch on TV, I read boring documents from the project I am working on, and still can't feel asleep. Finally, around 2-3 in the morning, I fall asleep. And that means, I have only 5-6 hours to sleep until I wake up again! With this rhythm, I am very happy Canada's day is this weekend and I get 3 days to sleep longer in the morning. Happy Canada's day!

Playing the movie critic

On my trip to San Francisco last week, I had the chance to watch a new movie, The Painted Veil (Ed Norton and Naomi Watts). I could have read the documents about the meeting I was going to attend, but couldn't resist Ed Norton. He is not 'hot', actually sometimes he aggravates me with his capricious characters, but he is attractive...don't try to find logic on what attracts me as you will not achieve anything! Naomi is unique as well, Aussy beauty, doesn't try hard to be sexy and picky on her characters. This movie is also produced by these two, so I thought I will read my docs at the hotel before I fall asleep.

Don't want to give away the movie, but in short is the story of a new couple where the wife has an affair very shortly after wedding and the husband decides to handle the situation in a very unique way by moving with her to an infected remote village in China. It is amazing how nicely they thought of making the story so intense, elegant, modern and fit it in 2 hours. If you really want to know what love is, this movie will show it. Everyone can be in a situation like that. Everyone has his/her own way of dealing with it. In this movie, he decides to make her love him. It is the most difficult thing to do if you know your partner is thinking of someone else. And yet, seems like you CAN do it, make him/her, really and truly fall out of love from the other one and fall in love with you!
Although some reviews are kind of skeptical about this movie, I will put it in the list of my favorite ones. At the end, is a love story and I like them!

New wheels

It feels so good to drive my new Volvo C30!



Till late, I used to be a "from A to B" person when related to cars. And then my husband kept talking about how good it feels when the car drives nice and fast and people actually turn their heads to look at your car, so I became one of "enjoy the driving" people. As you can see, this car is very catchy, sporty and (wrongfully) gives the idea that the driver is a single person. Someone told me that from behind, it looks like some kind of animal. I have actually noticed Audi and BMW drivers getting behind to look at my car's ass :)) Or some do see the car from behind and then they get in front and check me out from the mirror to see if the driver matches the car. Driving games you learn when you spend 2 hours a day on the High Way! I wish my behind was that attractive after the birth :)
When you drive it, it gives a sense of accomplishment. I have also prepared a CD with some songs with a nice beat that give extra energy. My work mates can understand from the way I say "good morning" if I drove my car to work or not. It's just sweet and fun to own a car like that!I have also ordered a customized license plate that will tell everyone what city I was born. Very proud about that, and very proud to have a car that matches how I feel :) .. altho' not many people will understand my license plate unless they know the city I was born.

The best salesman

John starts a new job in a huge supermarket where you could find anything under the Sun. The manager takes him a side and explains to him that in order to succeed in this position, he had to be prepared to take the customer's attention and although the customer might be there to buy something small, you have to make him buy more and bigger. Let's see how you do today and if things go fine, you will be hired full time.
At the end of the day, all the sales assistants get together to see how they did. The first one had 11 customers and made 30000 Euros income, the second one had 9 clients for 20000 Euros and so on and so on. What about you- the manager asks John. I had 1 customer and I made 350000 Euros - he says. How come -asks the manager.
Well- says John- this guy wanted fishing hook to go fishing in the lake. I sais: Look, the fish in the sea tastes better so you might want to go there. But to get there, you need a boat. To get the boat to the sea, you need a truck. And so he bought them all.
The manager, very existed, turns and tells to the others: Look what a great example, he came for a fishing hook and bought a truck!!

Actually - says Johh - he came to buy Tampax for his wife and I said:
Since you are not doing much next week, why don't you go fishing?!

My latest favorite lyrics

The new song of Bon Jovi
.....
If you leave now
I understand
but if you stay
hey, I have a plan
...
we'll make memories!

It's just a very fine line to change the story of a life. You can give up and start being friends apart, or you can stay and get closer, maybe for better... you hope for better!

Voyage,Voyage

April was a vivid month. Started with a week in Dominican Republic and then 3 days to San Francisco.






Dominican is an interesting country. I understand poverty as I come from a country that has been poor for long. The common thing that poor countries have is bad roads, have problems with electricity and running water, they make strangers feel un-secure while if you live there it's all fine, there is always a guy responsible for messing things up and bring the country in the status it is. Simple people are friendly, middle class wants to rip you off in a nice way, rich people ... they are the same everywhere! I have the feeling I was not in the best resort Dominican has. They kept things clean but not much facilities for children and not much variety in the buffet menu. Was nice not to cook for 1 week but not nice to have choices like banana pie (some kind of Shepard's pie where mashed potatoes is replaced with mashed bananas), pre-sweetened french toast, skimmed milk... They also had an area where for half an hour a day was a competition on target shooting and arrow sling. I tried both. Arrow was the first time and kind of hurt myself trying to get to the target, failed "crapy-crapy" as the guy there kept saying. But on the gun... I had to bring back the memories of military training from high school and I did much better than some big men there. One of them actually asked me "Are you a police officer?" :))) Anyway, if I go again to Dominican, I will try to pay some more and go to a better place.

San Francisco in the other hand was NICE! Because work payed for my trip, I stayed in a very nice hotel, with a king size fluffy bed just for me! A little chilly when I was there but much warmer than the place I spend the rest of the year. Getting this picture of Golden Gate was almost like taking it from an airplane. The wind was so strong, I could have felt down the hill. But it was all worthy! The downtown is very cute. Loved the streets that start at the ocean and like a ribbon stretch to the top of the hill. The houses are all well kept, with personality and I'm sure I can't afford one! Spent most of the free time I had by Pier 39, main tourist area. You could see Alcatraz from there and there were a lot of store selling jail clothes, even baby jail clothes!! One thing I will not forget from that trip is the size of sandwiches. They are HUGE! I order a turkey sandwich and I get half a loaf of bread, a whole turkey breast, 2 tomatoes... I ate it in 2 portions in a 3 hours time difference. Same with a veggie sandwich next day...My work matte started having fun with me "You and your big sandwiches"!
I don't want to live in America, but Cali can change my mind... ok there are also a handful of other cities that I can live in States but they are colder than California so they fall lower in the list. I am ready to have a lower salary but live in a warm and sunny place. I feel smarter, stronger, sexier when the weather is nice. It's not fair the way Canada and States share the continent. The border shouldn't divide North with South but East with West. In that way, each country can have a share of the sun and snow. I guess these are things we have to blame our predecessors for the wrong decisions they made.

Au dessus des vieux volcans,
Glisse des ailes sous les tapis du vent,
Voyage, voyage,
Eternellement.
De nuages en marécages,
De vent d'Espagne en pluie d'équateur,
Voyage, voyage,
Vole dans les hauteurs
Au dessus des capitales,
Des idées fatales,
Regarde l'océan...

Voyage, voyage
Plus loin que la nuit et le jour, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Dans l'espace inouï de l'amour.
Voyage, voyage
Sur l'eau sacrée d'un fleuve indien, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Et jamais ne revient.

Sur le Gange ou l'Amazone,
Chez les blacks, chez les sikhs, chez les jaunes,
Voyage, voyage
Dans tout le royaume.
Sur les dunes du Sahara,
Des iles Fidji au Fujiyama,
Voyage, voyage,
Ne t'arrêtes pas.
Au dessus des barbelés,
Des coeurs bombardés,
Regarde l'océan.

Voyage, voyage
Plus loin que la nuit et le jour, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Dans l'espace inouï de l'amour.
Voyage, voyage
Sur l'eau sacrée d'un fleuve indien, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Et jamais ne revient.

Au dessus des capitales,
Des idées fatales,
Regarde l'océan.

Voyage, voyage
Plus loin que la nuit et le jour, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Dans l'espace inouï de l'amour.
Voyage, voyage
Sur l'eau sacrée d'un fleuve indien, (voyage voyage)
Voyage (voyage)
Et jamais ne revient

Weekend is to me like vacation is to ...

So is this show, Test the Nation IQ and I was expecting to do a 89% in a 100% scale. Missed some questions as it took a while to get them, but I made it to be a 85%, not so bad but not so good either! At the last page, when they showed my result, the bell of results was from 50 to 140%. Now how can someone be 140% smart???? Maybe that can be a question on it's own. If you want to take the same test, cbc.ca/testthenation

Before this show, was another one "Canada's next great Prime Minister". The judges were 4 ex liberal Prime Ministers or Ministers. So there were 3 guys and 1 girl picked from some audition tapes. There were some very good ides from the peoples in tapes that didn't make it to the stage, like: marijuana has to be legal, there has to be a match making agency controlled and organized by government! At the end of each poll, the results were close between a guy from Quebec and another English speaking young doctor. The doctor won 2 out of three polls but the french guy won the last one, the final one that gave him 50.000$. Well, I'm ok with that, he was 23 and married, spoke english and french and came from a military home. What I didn't like is that he was french! Why all the politicians of Canada has to come from Quebec? Is it true that french have the politic in the blood and they can spin the words and the situation in a way to make you angry and win by just being ... what's the word....son of b*s!
Anyway,
the most important thing about my weekend is that I started the karate class! I always wanted to be good in kicking ass, but never took it seriously. This guy that works with me, has black belt and he has classes very close to where I live. At the end of the class, I felt my legs being wick and I thought: good thing I'm driving home. By the end of the day, my legs are in so much pain that I'm holding to the rail to come up and down the stairs. Ohh... I don't see a nice Monday ahead! The teacher is not coming to work tomorrow for some personal reasons and I think he is just lucky cause I would have taken all the energy left in me, multiplied it by the pain and give him a very good kick. Take that black belt! I'm supposed to go back next Sunday... I will think more about it during the week.
And the answer of the title is: cruise captain! He does not enjoy vacation while taking care of all the people in the boat!

That Secret

So, this huge hit book, "The Secret", that explains how to be happy and have any thing you want. Because my reading time is lost, I got the movie and I thought I will get it in nutshell in a couple of hours. I like it quite a bit actually, although there is a lot of bullsh** in it. The idea is that the Universe and everything works based on the law of attraction. In order to attract something, we must use our body-brain-muscle energy in order to focus it to make that wish come true. Not bad at all! Dream about something, visualize it in your mind, if a chance to make it happen, grab it! And then, there is this part when they say "You can't change the World! Forget about the past and think about what the future can bring you" That sounds a little wrong to me.



For some reasons, it just feels to me like it's coming sealed from Bush before elections!



I would like to think like that, to base my every day in good and happy thoughts, to be a dreamer with a philosophy behind it. But what if my dream is to change the World? What if my dream is to re-live some part of my past? This secret kind of limits your dreams like that.
Now, since I am a grown up and I kind of given up on changing the World, and since I have lived my life and I have no worries about my past, I will give this theory a shot! My dream is to have 20 million dollars in a couple of years minimum and in this life time maximum! I will be very positive, I will buy Lottery tickets every time the price is 20 millions, I will say yes if a millionaire will ask me to marry him and I will help any rich person in trouble after s/he promises me to pay me back. This is my Secret and I will go and work on it, right now! I have actually bought also a T-shirt that reads "DESI(RED)" in order to attract desires (hmmm ...)
In the book they say that there is plenty of resources out there to make all of us happy. We do not desire the same things so the resources can be shared in a peaceful way. This means, you other people, dream about other stuff because I'm dreaming about money.

Loose the muse

You can tell I lost my muse somewhere last month. Nothing to write for a month... actually a lot but nothing to amuse me. It doesn't really matter what brings you the energy, but once you loose it, everything else is multiplied by zero and makes no sense.... practically, it sucks! And then I decide to watch only romantic movies so maybe they can entertain me, but all they do is make me feel even worst, ... ok I admit, I cry....To rub it more, the weather is getting so warm and nice that is almost spring. This morning I did see birds in the little tree in my front yard. As good as it might sound, there is a big bell inside my had that goes ding-dong and reminds me that I have to loose some weight before I start wearing clothes that let skin show.

So, back to the energy and muse. A couple of weeks ago I felt smart, I found this solution for a big problem around and I can tell you that being a hero it feels good. I had in my head this AC/DC song "I'm TNT, I'm dynamite...." with all the power and energy it brings. Every other problem around started feeling like it was just a question that was waiting for my answer (solution). Yeah! The down side was that the weather at those days was the worst of this winter. Snow and cold like hell.
And then it started...one day we got stuck on something that I didn't expect and I didn't have a plan on how to handle it. The other day, the testing team found out that the big solution I had two weeks ago, actually doesn't work as expected. All that energy is kind of sleeping now and although I can still find solution for other problems, it just does not feel good. All I need and want now is vacation, take some days off, re-charge my energy and get my muse back... oh.. and loose a little weight.
It looks like all I can think of is work. I have said before I'm a workaholic, but I do get my muse from other stuff too. The thing is that it does not matter what brings or takes the muse, I must push on all the options around me that can bring me the energy I lost... even if that means watching more Hugh Grant movies.

Since we work...

Actually I am lucky to work in a place where majority of people are above the average on the intellectual level. But there is always the difference between who works, who looks like works and who does not work. Within these categories there are the ones that keep a low profile and are happy with the arrangement and those that do want to go higher in position and become BIG.
Personally I'm a workaholic and I envy a lot the category of people that do not work. Because they do not work, they never make mistakes so they never get blamed for any problem. All they do is pass the job on my dish and, they are sure it will get done. Fries with that?!The funny thing is that in case the company decides to cut of on people, the ones that stay are the ones that do nothing and they keep doing nothing by saying that there are no resources, and there is too much work load to handle!!! I do not understand how some companies stay above the water. But than again, if everyone was like me, companies would function with less people and the level of un-employment would be high, so we get to other problems.
As a women in technology, I do feel that the word of a man weights more than the word of a woman. Maybe because we take a lot of responsibilities, work always in multi-tasking status and sometimes we do mess up. Man are the ones that experiment with our results, the ones that decide if we messed up or we finally managed to do something right for once! A woman can go nuts or can start become numb. If you go nuts, than you are suggested to use Yoga to bring down the tension within your system. If you go numb, you are asked to step up. So there are times when we are nuts and after a while we become numb and then we go nuts again. All these waves, make the heart diseases in women higher than in men. So women die before men. That means, that there are a lot of men that get rich from the life insurance money they get when their wives pass away.

In a nutshell, women work a lot, get blamed a lot and men pick up all the fruits. So if you are a man, better go to work as you will be promoted and get rich. If you are a women, try to dress up and look always nice as otherwise you will be mistaken for a donkey!

To work or Not to work

I, personally choose not to work. I would volunteer here and there just to get out of my house, dress something else than my pajamas and communicate face-to-face with other humans. But since I inherited nothing from my parents (except hot blood), since I didn't marry rich (nothing wrong with being a gold digger!) and since I can't afford the life I want without working, I have to work :(
To go to work, I have two options, to be the passenger of my husband or to take the train.
Behind the wheel, my husband is the prototype of "Mom, why all the idiots are in the streets when dad is driving?". I grab the "Holy shit" handle above the exit door every time I feel my life is in danger. Now you know what my last words will be! Other than that, it is convenient because he doesn't pay for parking, that expensive, washed in gold piece of land used every day to park your car while you work to make money to pay for it.
If it is not raining, no wind chill to slap your face, if the train is on time and has 2 extra wagons, I like train. Watching the behaviors of the same people every-day, you can do a human study there without paying them to be your guinea-pigs. You can catch up on reading, read the gosspis from the free daily magazine covered in led, play a Sudoku, can listen downloaded song or watch downloaded movies. Then is the walk from train to work. You can find out what some of your train companions do for living. She gets to a lawyer's office but I think she must be just the assistance. He gets to a nice hotel and I'm not sure what he can do there, shady!
And then you go to work! There, you have to deal with your colleagues! To be continued....

Distance

Don't ask me why but I like this picture very much!

An old friend of mine is leaving the city for good, following his dream. Of course I wish him the best, but I know I will miss him next time we all get together here. I will miss the fact that sometimes I had the option to have lunch with him and it's like going back in time. Yet another friend by e-mail.
What keeps us friends? History... a complex of things done, words said, alcohol drunk, laughs and tears! It seems like I have more friends by e-mail than friends I can touch. I'm making friends people that have eyes with different shape than mine, skin with different shade than mine, interests different than mine. I have changed a lot since I moved in this city. I don't know if I like who I was or who I am, but I can say for sure, I have and I will love my friends wherever they are! I need them in my life, closer or in distance, as long as I can find a way to communicate. It's that history that can glue us together without too much words. And of course e-mail helps A LOT!
... C'est la vie!

Lately

This song that I hear in every radio channel I stop, called "Love You Lately" by Daniel Powter says:

'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.


What does "lately" mean? How long is "lately"? Like everything in our life, the concept of love is changing in Media as well. Till now we are raised up listening ".. and they fell in love and lived happily ever after!". But now we have "I love you lately". Personally, I always thought that you can't be in love all the time but there are some couples I know that sometimes make me think I'm kind of Grinchy about love. Hearing this song I feel much better and down to earth than before.
Being in love is the best time a couple has. After that, other things come in first in the list of priorities, and we are not in love anymore like we used to. But it is in human nature to seek love, so we might find other people with whom we will be in love "lately" for a while.
But for how long can love last? What makes us fall out of love? If the other person is normal, no kind of abuse happend, can we still be in love? I guess it is not enought. To make someone be in love with you over and over, you will have to behave just like when you made that person fall in love first time. You should make sure that what you do and say are not done and told by someone else, and that better be a good thing! First of all, you should make sure that you want to be in love with that person. Otherwise, "lately" will be short!

'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.

Score it like Beckham

What a sweet deal!!
$1 million a week for 5 years....!!!!!!
It's Adidas that is paying for this but would be good if they add some more in the salary of the other team members. He is, by far, the rich kid in the team, and maybe not very well- welcomed!
I guess Brad and Angelina are happy now that Maddox can have his private football lessons without an air trip fare.

The third

I'm not talking about the new Shrek, that by the way, I can't wait to come out in theaters.


I'm talking about the possibility of the Third World War.

The crazy Iran's leader wants to erase Israel from the map alla Hiroshima. Israel is ready to bomb Iran and stop this madness. Who is right?
Winston Churchill once said that the Second World War was not necessary if the International troupes had stopped that crazy man called Hitler before he started. International troupes are always late on deciding what to do (remember Bosnia?). Should Israel wait for them or go ahead and take the risk to be hated (more than it is already) from other countries in the region? All this because a crazy man has nuclear power in his hands!!
GOD Save Our Wick Souls!!

.. and some italians too

Translation is mine :)

Come vorrei Ricchi e Poveri Ci sono giorni in cui non dormo e penso a te sto chiuso in casa col silenzio per amico mentre la neve dietro ai vetri scende giù e aspetto qui vicino al fuoco in quest'inverno c'è qualcosa che non va non è natale da una volta nella vita eppure è stato solamente un anno fa speriamo che non sia finita come vorrei come vorrei amore mio come vorrei che tu mi amassi a modo mio che questa sera troppo triste troppo uguale non fosse più senza di te come vorrei come vorrei amore mio come vorrei che questo amore che va via non si sciogliesse come fa la neve al sole senza parole dovrei capirti quando vedo che vai via e non amarti quando non vuoi farti amare senza cadere in una nuova gelosia che solo tu mi fai provare come vorrei come vorrei amore mio come vorrei che tu mi amassi a modo mio che questa sera troppo triste troppo uguale non fosse più senza di te come vorrei come vorrei amore mio come vorrei che questo amore che va via non si sciogliesse come fa la neve al sole senza parole e questa volta un'altra donna non verrà a cancellare la tua impronta sul cuscino anche alla luna glie l'ho chiesto e non ci sta non vuole più starmi vicino

How would I want Ricchi e Poveri There are days I do not sleep and think of you Stay at home with silence as a friend And while the snow behind the windows is falling down I wait here close to the fire There is something wrong with this winter For once in lifetime it's not Christmas But it was here not longer than a year ago Let's hope it is not gone for good How would I want How would I want my love How would I want you loved me the same way I do That this evening so sad and so like the others it wasn't anymore without you How would I want How would I want my love How would I want that this love that is going away it didn't melt like the snow under sun without any word I must understand when I see you going And not love you when you do not want to be loved Without falling into a new jealousy that only you can make me feel How would I want How would I want my love How would I want you loved me the same way I do That this evening so sad and so like the others it wasn't anymore without you How would I want How would I want my love How would I want that this love that is going away it didn't melt like the snow under sun without any word And this time there won't be another woman to erase your print in the pillow I have even asked the moon and it didn't work Even she doesn't want to stay me close anymore